Flashback: Februaury 3, 2008

Wow, I cannot believe on this day this year I was laying (well, trying to lay) in bed waiting for mom to hurry up and get down to New Bedford and this is after I was already in labor for a week and a half!!! I KNOW! lol. So this is how it all started. When Louie was in INS at this time last year I was sleeping on the couch. I couldn't sleep in our bed alone, way to sad and creepy. I would just hold his pillows and cry and I couldn't stress out my baby anymore them she was. So I slept on the couch and constantly had the TV going because I didn't wanna think (it helped a little but not much). So on Feb. 2nd 2008 my niece Catarina and I had gone to the grocery store to pick up a few things, little did I know I was in back labor. My water had been breaking little by little for that whole week and a half but been medical advice and other pregnant women, I was totally convinced that Emmy was sitting on my blatter and thats why I was pissing myself, lol. NOPE! It was my water breaking little by little and why would I think it was my water breaking anyway? It was 6 weeks before her due date and yes, my back hurt a lot, but I didn't even think of back labor, my stomach had popped out so much I looked like I was having twins and everyone thought I was truly having multiples. So I thought I was just having back pain from carrying such a big belly around. So...at the end of shopping with my niece I was in so much pain I couldn't even bag my groceries, she bagged them all and took my to Louie's dads van. We went at and I fell asleep until 3 o'clock that morning. I was awakened by a HUGE grush and what felt like a leg coming out (weird feeling). I called my mother and told her what happened and how the pain was so much worse. We both thought it was a pinched nerve, but it was in the back of both our minds what it was. Mom called in sick and drove down to New Bedford. I had to go get my medication first, she insisted on taking me to the hospital right then, but I said no. So after I got my medication I told her to take me to McDonalds (because I have to eat with my medicine, LOL!!!) So we are sitting the McDonalds drive thru and I am reclining the seat back and forth screaming the whole time, HAHA! My child was almost born there. So mom got me my food, (which I couldn't eat by the way, my Egg McMuffin was out the window after one tiny bite) and took off to the ER right away. We got there and mom wheeled me into the waiting room. I told them I thought I had a pinched nerve. They put me in a wheel chair and took me to materinity. I was checked immediately and they said I was in labor and already had been for a while. They also confirmed my "foot" theory. Her foot was already hanging out of me and had been for 4 hours!! They threw scrubs at mom and wheeled me in for my emergency c-section. At first they told me I was going to have to be put out for the surgery and I was so upset. I did not want to miss my daughter's birth. Little did I know they had mom out in the hallway telling her that there was a big possibility that Emelia and I could die. They kept telling me to stay still. I don;t know if you have expirienced BACK LABOR...AINT. GONNA. HAPPEN!!!!! LOL. I did the best I could to deal with the worst pain I have felt in my life. After sticking a huge needle in my spine they got it on the second shot. I started to feel some relief and was much more relaxed. They put a blue sheet inbewtween my neck and my chest so I couldn't see anything. Mom saw everything and I am surprised she didn't vomit everywhere. lol. She watched them take out my organs and I could smell something nasty when they were cutting me open. Then as I was laying there I was blood splatter all over the blue sheet, lol. Not very comforting!! Then mom told me that Emelia was out. I heard them say 8:29 and I was relieved because if they had said 8:30 I would have yelled at them for the EXACT time, for some reason the exact time is important to me. So mom saw them take her out and the first words from mom "OH MY GOD! SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE LOUIE!!!!!" and she was laughing, she couldn't believe how much she looked just like him. Then I looked to my right and saw all these doctors standing around Emelia, blocking mine and moms view of her. Later I found out that they were resusiating her. They got her breathing right away and handed her to mom. She was like "see how much she looks just like him!!" LOL. I couldn't believe it, she was truly a mini-Louie. When I looked at her I fell in love instantly, I couldn't believe I was looking at MY daughter. I told her that I loved her and she was taken to the NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit). I was taken out of surgery and the taken to the recovery room where they piled tons of warm blankets on me. This whole time I was worried about Louie. We talked on the phone every morning at 9am. I knew Louie had been calling was VERY worried. So he called his mom who didn't know where I was either which totally freaked him out. So I asked my mom to call Louie's mom's house and my sister in law Leslie answered and she told her about Emelia. I made some other phone calls after that too, but I was so worried about Louie. I heard later that Louie called his moms house and he said "Did you hear from Lindsay yet?" and his mom said "You're a daddy" and Louie just started crying and hung up. I didn't get to talk to Louie until 4 days later because our phone acct. wasn't set up to call the hospital and Louie could only call me. So the day Emmy was born was bitter sweet, I had the best thing that ever happened to me in my whole life in my arms but she came during the worst time of my life. I stayed in the hospital for 5 days, doing Physical therapy and sitting with Emelia. A lot of the time I was on the phone with Louie's lawyer and making phone calls to do with Louie's case. He had also made me his power of attorney because he couldn't trust anyone else. He knew I would do whatever it took to get him home. It was so crazy because some people thought I should have been dedicating all my energy to Emelia and not working on Louie's case (and yes, the lawyer and paralegal did shit and I did everything, the applications, the letters, getting his wrap sheets, you name it. the only reason we got him is because he had a good name) But anyway. I knew I had to work on Louie's case and get him out or my daughter wouldn't have a normal life. When I got out of the hospital I came home to an empty house. I just had a a baby and she was in the hospital and Louie was in INS. It was rock bottom. But now I look around and I see Louie holding and they are both laughing and I know the hell we went through was totally worth it. Well, gotta get ready for Emmy's little party. Louie's family is coming over for cake tonight. I'l post later with some pictures.